Muahaha.changed blogskin le cuz i hab complain tt my previous blogskins cant be viewed cuz it somehow cant..(they use firefox).
Todae had lunch at mac.Den we went to study again..blehx :X Science exam was a little,little,little bit tough and tricky.Compo was little hard to write about cuz too many choices(5 in total).Den choose choose choose,i choose Q1(how a fwendship came to an end).Sort of sad to write about,,but somehow it is planned out de.Muahaha~~~
wah seh,todae after skool went to mac to study..den suddenly saw someone..someone unexpected.Well it not realli unexpected..cuz it a public place.However..it somehow scary sia..it does gib me a shock ok..den spoil my mood of studying..Den the mood sian liao.cuz of this..nv eat lunch :x ,however,i am not hungry!dunno y..maybe cuz of the shock.Den at mac i oso saw my primary skool fwend.sort of happi i tod?but nth much to sae..cuz we isn't tt close...and 1 thing.MANDY AND KAREN PANG SEH KIAA >< go pang seh me and kim..they good..
after tt went to canberra park..first time siia..sort of fun?lol..cuz got the swing :D(my fav) and the bounce bounce thingy.haha.sort of enjoyed myself dere wif kim.den forget bring water..almost.. dehydrated.den..hehehehe the ice-cream uncle came!!woot.got ice-cream and drinks siaa..so happi ^^
Yesterdae,i went to my uncle house to hab dinner wif all the family members.it sort of a good thing lo,cuz having such busy life,all of us still take out time to gather.den we oso watcht he video they took when they are at japan..sort of envy .LOL .nvm..it my life..full of envy.muahahaha^^
sian lo,todae morning internet got prob,cant access.cuz the DSL got prob..gRgRgR
den todae going to uncle house^^ so long nv go his house le..
gRgRgR..it sat again.hate sat.worst dae of the week.nth to do....
todae stayed bak and plae freebisssss and do HW wif kim,mandy and yenting..As in,,onli i am the 1 tt do HW lol..Den veri sian..however,it beta den staying at home ^^
somemore during skool,i think mrs james veri wad lo.cuz Glynnise and Anthea put their bag otuside class cuz class rm lock,den their bag was lost(i think is someone hu took it to prevent ppl from stealing).Den,they ask mrs james for their bags.And mrs james despite of helping dem,instead she gab dem a scolding.which i think is too much.yes , i admit tt she told us not to do it,but she should not hab gab them the scolding at tt time.
doesn't she noe the feeling when ur belongings is lost?
doesn't she noe how miserable it is to be scolding just bcuz of this?
doesn't she noe that ppl do make mistake?
doesn't she noe that by scolding them,they might just hate her?
doesn't she noe that she is too much?
doesn't she noe that she made someone cried over this?
if she doesn't noe tt,well she beta noe and udnerstand it well,or else she gona be in my black list of ''teachers'' hu are sort of not reali can be called ''teacher''(usuali is cuz their exp no good,or make me feel lyke giving dem 1 tight slap.)
sian..todae kana detention(actualli is such staying bak for 1h doing english stuff..)veri kb lo.We got the detention cuz of math,but end up doing engish compre..luckly the compre was a easy one.Or else ho..i will reali be veri angry.
Todae mrs wong teach us.And i say teach,not revised..cuz mostly wad she said,we nv seem to heard it b4 for the last 3 mths(actualli i do, just some dun understand)Terrible sia..WE wasted 3 mth..and the we include Mr Hafiz.3mth is alot..and now onli left FEW DAYS to cover up wad we wasted for the pass 3mth..sound impossible..however,i am going to strive hard for itttttttt!!
Also,andrew promise to gib me photoshop.MUAHAHAHAHA.LOVEEEEEEE HYYYYMMMM<333 as a fwend ^^ . he reali veri pro lo,noe alot things abt cyberspace. ~ pro pro pro~Hope i can get the photoshop tomorrow and strt my learning journey on photoshop!!
However,An Chai oso no bad la..he oso good in cyberspace.But not as much as Andrew.No matter wad,they are a good sourse for info of cyberspace LOL.(wad i mean is a good fwend for life!!)
Finally,mrs wong is backy!!muahahaha.finally..However,as wad i expected..a lecture will sure be given to us..As u noe,our attitude during math lesson sux when the relief teacher teaches..Haiiz.Nvm..having a lecture,but it is the number of lessons left wif her b4 the exam.Our class result reali veri bad.I reali hope she can reali..get us bak to where we are at the first day of skool..Our maths are now in her hand..however,we still got to buck up^^
However!!!!todae got the news tt getting....OUR NPCC UNIFORM SOON!!woot.Cant w8 sia.Dying to get tt unfirom..muahahahaha finally ^^
seriously,todae isn't realli a good dae..CUZ ITS A BAD ONE..
1ST Someone,SOMEONE made me w8 at the bus stop for 10min and end up nv sae sorri.U noe how cold is it standing at the bus stop lyke someone hu is retarded EARLY IN THE MORNING?If u dun feel tt,infact try it URSELF..
2ND One of our teacher..veri kbkb.HE/SHE show us attitude..well,is we show hym/her attitude i got to sae first.BUT AS A TEACHER,SHOWING STUDENT ISN'T VERI GOOD.AND I MEAN IT.DO U THINK A TEACHER SHOWING HE/HER STUDENT ATTITUDE BY NOT DOING ANITHING IS GOOD?WELL NO WAY.IF SHE GET PIST OFF SO EASYILY,WAD FOR BEING A TEACHER?
3TH My parent sux..and they reali do.So wad if they afford $ for my..anithing i need(sometime i even got to use my own money).They went ..so sensitive,which tt the reason y i hate dem..I was just tolking to some of my fwend(of different gender)and they will strt listening to my phone(WHICH IS SOMETHING I HATE MOST,DERE SUCH THINGYS AS PRIVACY UNDERSTAND?FINE,I AM ONLI 13.BUT THIS DOESN'T GIVE THEM THE RIGHT TO LISTEN TO MY PHONE ON THE OTHERSIDE OF THE HOUSE!)and ask sillies questions
''Hu is he?''
''Why is he calling u?''
''Wads his name?''
''He how old?''
''How he noe u?''
''Why he keep calling?''
''Why is he sms-ing u?''
FORGODNESS SAKE.IF U THINK IT KIND OF CARING DEN U ARE WRONG!IF U THINK IT IS A KIND OF CARING,DEN I MIGHT WELL DUN 1 IT!HU EVEN CARE ABT THE CARING THINGY WHEN I AM TRYING TO GET THEM OFF!Sometime,they even check my hp for inbox and call log.I tried to lock my phone..but when i lock it,dey will find ways to crack it.CALLING PPL OF OPPOSITE GENDER DOESN'T MEAN ANITHING!
We can might well put it in this way,if a opposite gender of my parent called and ask for dem,does it ever mean tt they hab relationship?DOES IT MEANS TT?NO OF CUZ!maybe some case.BUT NO!SO THE SAME CONCEPT GOES HERE.IF DEY REAL ISCARED ME OF HAVING A RELATIONSHIP,MIGHT WELL SENT ME TO GURLS SKOOL,THEY ARE THE 1 HU ASKED ME COME TO CANBERRA.And listening to someone else phone is RUDE.imgaine u are tolking wif someone and suddenly u heard ur parent listening?wad will u feel?Angry?Sad?Happi?WELL I WILL FEEL HATEFUL!
And becuz of this,i hardly hab conversation wif dem.hu care to hab conversation wif such ppl?they onli noe how to ''care'' me by asking those things tt doesn't seem to help,AND THEY NV HELP.cant w8 for my mother to hab her job,cuz it should be the little tiny time for my freedom.
So wad if i am onli 13.
So wad if i am a gurl.
So wad if i want to make fwends of other gender.
So wad if i want a rebeltion.
So wad if i hate dem.
So wad if i nv listen or obey to dem
AND FORGODNESS SAKE,I DUN NID CONSOLING.IT JUST A MATTER OF PRIVACY.WHICH THEY WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND.AND IF THEY REALI UNDRESTAND.THEY WILL NOT DO SUCH THINGS.WILL DEY?OF CUZ NOT!
Shiok lo..love Paula DeAnda!!!!!!Here are the top songs that i loves from her and the song emo/part tt i loves.and hope u link it^^
#1:MARCHING!!: If you only knew
Trouble she’s been going through
Could you walk in her shoes
When you ain’t got nothing to lose
Say you hope and you pray one day
That you get back what they took away
So you keep on marching
So you keep on marching
So when you feel like the sky is falling
And there’s nowhere to hide
Tell me, are tired of that crawling?
Then open your eyes
So we go left right left
Left right left (So you keep on marching)
Left right left (So you keep on marching)
Left right left..)
#2:When it was me!:You look at her so amazed
rmb way bak when
used to look at me tt way
tell me wads makes her so much better then me
wad makes her ur every dreams and fantasy
bcuz icant rmb when it was me)
Walk away: I saw you with your new girl just yesterday
And I feel that I must confess
Even though it kills me to have to say
I will admit that i was impressed
Physically just short of perfection
Gotta commend you on your selection
Though I know I shouldn't be concerned
In the back of my mind
I can't help but question
#4:Footprint on my heart:You stepped on me, you walked on me
Boy you left your
Footprints on
Heart broken crying over the way you left your
Footprints on my
Heart aching you ran all over me
And left ur footprints on my heart
Everydae seem so sian..reali lo.repeating wad i do..make things worst.but the problem is,i cant do something special..there nth for me to do tt is special..homework,study,sleep,slack,eat,piano,plae..repeat and repeat..tired of living...
Todae went to CWP to learn piano(civic center)sianz lo..so mani ppl.walk here walk dere walk everywhere..den during piano lesson veri..kb.cuz as i sae,in nv practice the music,den i was lyke..plae veri lan la,cuz not familierize.den he ask me to repeat every single thing(plae again and again)till no mistake..veri jia latt leh..ok la,i admit me wrong la..cuz nv practise..but reali no time lo.Everydae come home late,den nid study..where got time..HAIIZZZZZZZZ
sianz..doing wad i did last saturdae..haiiz,later going to learn piano again.nv practise song..den my piano book wif my fwend,cant learn le laaaaaa >.
Todae went to J8 wif fwend..things turn out differently, causeing me to be sort of little bit..hmm no .is veri dissapointed.Cuz j8 no bubble tea..no other good shop(other den minitoons)to shop and more..sian lo.Den todae tt mrs bunso bunnie kaur veri xia lan..she go ani how scream scream..scream onli ma,as if i cant...grgrgrgr..sianz laaa..hate to be lyke this
todae kim brought me my early birthdae present..it alot lo,gib so mani..sort of touch,as in anione hu gib me present no matter is alot or little,still will be touch...nth to write abt todae..the science praticle okok la,not so hard.sian lo,tomorrow nid c the mrs banso bunnie kaur face..sibei be shuang,somemroe dunno from when she our art teacher..FEEL LYKE SWEARING!!! $#@&
Todae when to apologised to hym for ''pah seh'' hym yesterdae=.= he was lyke veri wad lo.i sae sorri so so so mani time,den he nv forgiv,he sae he no angry..onli stupid ppl cant feel tt is he angry..imagine u got to run from skool to sun plaza den to skool den to sun plaza den to skool...Where got no angry de ....reali veri sorri laaaa...
Todae oso veri weird.Cuz mrs james no here,den oso no work,all of us are getting the chance to hab a PARTTTYYY.yes in the first place,but dunno y,out of the sudden,the whole class went so diam..dunno for wad reason -.- even sean,joel,kang wye keep their damm mouth shut.how great.Later mr james went in our class,den lyke veri diam.So he feel veri weird den ask if we got scolded before he came in..WE ARE NOT.WE WENT DIAM BY OUTSELVES!!den later during math,our class oso diam diam de,den b4 teacher came in,she tod she enter wrong class..weird seh..seldom our class become so diam de..but still,i like the peace,however at the same time feel weird.
grgrgrgrgrgr.todae went to mac wif my fwend.Cuz mandy no bring money and she refuses us to lent her money,So i tod of up sizing my filet-o-fish student.Having a med fries and coke..i offered mandy to eat..SHE IGNORE ME.HOW GOOD.so i got to finish up EVERYTHING!it far too much for a healthy 13yrs old gurl..den when we i finish everything,mandy sae she hungry..GOOOOOOD LO SHE.I OFFER HER SHE DUN 1. DEN NOW SAE SHE HUNGRY
worst still,when i went home, i realised the numebr of pimples increase!!!!!!!omg omg omg.den i go weigh myself.40KG BECOME 41KG AFTER THE MAC....CRAP LA.....therefore,i going to be on diet:no fried,oily,unhealthy,or snacks for my next 30days!!!!(untill 15 may)
Hope the diet thingy will help me get bak to 40kg or even lesser ^^
OMG..todae veri..veri KNS >.<.I make my frend walk from skool to half way sun plaza to skool,den to sun plaza den to skool den to sun plaze and to skool.HOOOOWW GOOD.And u noe wad?i am feeling sooooooo guilty~~~~~I make hym do so mani trips..here there here there here there here there here there.....ARGGGGGGGGGGGGThe guiltyness stay wif me for long.Sometime even playing computer/piano dun even HELP!I can withstand lonelyness,scare,emo,sad or ani other feeling.BUT NOT GUILTY....omgg...i am found guilty :'[
sorri.............
Den wehn i lyke beg for forgiveness,they forgive me easily!!!!!!!is this good?NO IT NOT.IT MAKE ME FEEL MORE GUILTY!!!!Cuz it lyke i did soemthign wrong to someone,den they jsut forgiv EASILY..omg omg omg omg omg..
guilty me.guilty me.guilty me.guilty me.guilty me.guilty me.guilty me.guilty me.guilty me.guilty me.guilty me.guilty me.guilty me.guilty me.guilty me.guilty me.guilty me.guilty me.guilty me.guilty me.guilty me.guilty me.guilty me.guilty me.guilty me.guilty me.guilty me.guilty me.guilty me.guilty me.guilty me.guilty me.guilty me.guilty me.guilty me.guilty me.guilty me.guilty me.guilty me.guilty me.guilty me.guilty me.guilty me.guilty me.guilty me.guilty me.guilty me.guilty me.guilty me.guilty me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
good lo,i realli dunno how to do the math.(all abt algebra)..die le la,later exam oso dunno.i can go bang wall le la :'[
reali hate being at home.But at the same time hate being outside.LOL cuz both veri sianz.But something i realised is that,i hab being listening to Paula DeAnda songs about 2 mths le!!Cuz having to listen to the same songs for every night before sleep but it not..sianz.Last time i used to like fahrenheit(now,dunno)den after listening to their songs not more den 5 time i sian le..(cuz they are idol,cant reali sing and perform well,but they look good.sori for tt..)
Somemore Paula DeAnda can reali bring out wad the lyric is trying to sae.Paula DeAnda is different from other english songs singer because she usualli sing emo love song(usuali is get dumped and the feeling of getting dumped)which suits alot of emo kia.For me,i not emo kia..i just lyke her voice and the way she express the feeling.While, other english singers usualli sings love song(singing out the feeling of in love),which are too common.This is what make PauLa DeAnda different and special.
For ur info,the song that are playing now oso sang by PauLa DeAnda ^.^
sian lo todae..later nid go learn piano.den 1 song i still dunno how plae.Sure kana 1..nth much abt todae sia.feel so tired=.= seriously veri tired...
Woot,finally can persuade my parent to let me online every fri,sat and sun before exam..Shiok seh..Todae tt mrs buso bunni kau veri kb,she go ani scold scold ppl.Feel lyke slaping her.She reali veri qian bian lo,she tolk as if she is a reali veri veri good teacher.If she good teacher,go to raffles to teacher la,go to JC to teacher la,go to university to teach la,go outside sg to teach la,wad for come canberra sec.Somemore she ish just a HE teacher,so wad if my HE fail,i still got my mother,she can teach me.At least my mother can teach BETA den her without exp.
She is the worst teacher i ever met,yes,even worst den Mr.Kumar.She the worst teacher.Actualli,Mrs bunso bunni kaur ish teaching relif in WRPS(my pri skool)den in WRPs,we all are senior(P6)den when my teacher no come,she will relif.Den our class all no listen to her.
EG:She call us sit,we stand
She call us quiet we tolk
She call us not to get outside of class,all of us play catching
She call us dun stand on chair,we stand on table
this is how our class get her.So now,we all junior in canberra sec.So somehow we dun reali dare to be rude to her.therefore she ish now taking her revenge on me.Cuz i was in the class(pehaps she rmb me).No matter wad,she ish a veri bad women(*pls note that i dun even call her teacher cuz she doesn't fit to be one)
sad lor...2 weeks cant online cuz the exam thingy thingy.Todae pehaps is my last dae online before exam bah(cuz E-learning).Nvm,as long as i suffer for this fews weeks,and get goody result,everything is worthy!!!!!!!Actualli,i not lyke others ppl hu hates exam,,ok la i sort of lyke exam.cuz it get to gives us where our study standard ish,yes,we do get stress cuz of exam,but imagine a world without exam.We will not b able to noe where we stand,noe how good or abd we are.Den the world will go ''opsi turvy'''..
however,wad i cant stand is my bro.he hates study,he hates exam,he loves to slack,plae psp(dun even let me touch it).BUT HE STILL GET GOOD GRADES WITHOUT EVEN REVISING.i study,i revise and yet grade nv improve.ok i got to sae he ish smart..but it too unfair for me.i work so hard and yet this kind of things happen..den somemore,when he dunno some ques ask me,den some i dunno he sae i stupid..hello,they change the topic and blah blah things,how can rmb every single thing.And he can even plae computer/psp while i am doing all kind of house chores.Doesn't he feel guilty?So wad if he ish good in his study,he onli noes how to plae plae and plae.So wad if he every year get the $$ from goverment cuz he ish smart.de doesn't even help in any chores,and his attitude sux.
lol,but some time,i sae sometime I SAE SOMETIME he good la.lyke eg,i miss my pri skool ''chicken seaweed''den every wed he will buy for me,without me paying..den sometime i oso feel guilty..cuz i learn piano den he cant when he wanna learn guilta cuz not enough $$..haiiz..
Haiiz,todae i went to c pray my grandmother..veri sad,realli veri sad.Cuz it been years we hab not visit her house le,but we do visit her funeral .So,we went to her house,everything seem no change,the plates we used is dere,the bed she slept is still there,the pillow she use is still there,the cup she drank is still there,the photo she had is still there,the clock she used is stil there,the handcraft she made is still there,the machine we used for making clothes is still there(kept for abt 10yrs,since my mummy ish young)..
cuz my 4th uncle is living dere it should be clean and span bah..but he is single,somemore addicted to comptuer games,u anytime go visit hym,he sure is plae computer(not reali everytime,sometime he work.)so,the floor veri dirty...
Den the house realli no different,i feel so famelier,but at the same time unfamelier.At the moment,i feel lyke crying..i feel veri angry about me.When my grandmother was still alive,i nv treasure her,i took everything for granted.everytime my mummy wana visit her,i feel so sian,but now even if i want to,it far too late.4yrs pass,the feeling of guilty is stil dere.However,the feeling of my grandmother spirit is still here,cuz when we wanna leave,it strt to rain,rain heavly.I had a feeling of my grandmother wanna let us stay.And it rain for 30min,should be enough for my grandmother.
wah hai..this few days so busy..sorri for not posting ah..realli sorri.Den friday got camp.the camp fun la i got to sae,but veri rush..becuz of the rush,i fall :'[ haiiz,den si bei pain lo.After a while,the nco saw my injuries,den they bring me to comand room for washing up of my wound,den so coisident lo,zhong heesun happen to be dere,den he saw my wound den he sae''aiya for the sake of alex u must endure''pls lo,since when i lyke alex..he veri kb.Den in the camp,we get to noe alot seniors la,den when we cook the maggie mee ho,si bei pathetic,cuz our time veri little la,den nid cook,wash and clean up.so becuz of the time,i share with xi li.The camp fire was oso a great one!With all our Ci singing.lol reali funny,cuz seldom c them in such..way.Den joel sir,hanisa mdm,ahdullah sir and other Ci's sing banna song SEXILLY~and oso the linger(somemore got ''pei ying and ehco'')We all laught tio..siao and as high as dem.
after the camp,we clean the toilet,so fun lo(lol)we waste the water lyke no bodi buiness...Den we got our result out..
1st:Wind
2nd:Fire
3th:Earth
4th:water
haiiz,although we got second,but the different between our point to wind is 7!!!!!wa hai..after tt i went ,no not went,is RUSH!i rush home,cuz got piano lesson later on..so tired,i feel lyke sleeping.
